I thought about my hockey career and the path that took me on. I had moderate success and was fortunate enough to get a scholarship and then play a little minor pro afterwards, but I always felt I had left something on the table. At the time it was a finger pointing exercise…it wasn’t my fault, I got screwed, the coach didn’t like me, so many excuses.

 

Looking back, I had mentally beat myself up and given up when things didn’t go my way. Sometimes the pressure we put on ourselves causes us to feel stuck. This isn’t about working harder, putting in more time in the gym, running an extra lap….I now know this is about the mindset that you create when you wake every morning and the mental routine that we build that allows us those wins each day.

 

At other times I would consider my professional business career…again having success early, success in sales, moving quickly up the corporate food chain, becoming a leader, a sales manager, a VP etc… but again blaming unfortunate circumstances on others when things went south. They didn’t like me, I got screwed, why did this happen to me….and this streak of bad luck if you will, continued after I got out of the hospital and got back up to rebuild my life. A series of fortunate yet unfortunate opportunities. I was always able to provide and put food on the table but that feeling of not reaching my potential and falling just short, for whatever reason, haunted me.

 

But always in the back of my head I could hear that voice telling me I was meant to do more, I was meant to be more, I was meant to be of service…but how, and what?

 

I became a very avid reader. I was consumed with elements of what some might call "woo woo" mindset…how our thoughts become who we are, how they translate into the universe, how they bring back to us exactly what we put out, how we truly are either free or can become prisoners of our own minds. We all have the choice. The universe doesn’t discriminate. Most of us fall into the category of never truly meeting our potential.

 

It was this reflection of self that allowed me to stop pointing the fingers on failures of the past and at people who I thought did me wrong. I owned every single thought and all the actions behind them. I owned my successes and I owned my failures and I have learned that it was my attitude and mindset that held me back from reaching my potential. That stuck feeling was caused by me. And I now possess the tools that that I have learned and developed over the last few years that I wish someone had of shared with me years ago to help unlock that potential and get unstuck.

 

Someone asked me what keeps me up at night?

 

Well I'll tell you, it's standing at the Pearly Gates when this is all over, meeting the person I was supposed to be and knowing I didn't fulfill that potential.